I remember when I felt like nothing was working out in life for me; I felt like I was nobody. I wanted things to begin working out better for me, so I could feel like I was somebody. I said to myself, “I’ve heard that the squeaky wheel gets the oil, and so it may be time for me to make a nuisance of myself. Certainly, I am not getting what I want out of life right now, and I am feeling like nobody; it can’t hurt to give it a try.” I decided to make fussing and insisting my new way of living.
I made an interesting discovery while going through that phase in my life when I was fussing and insisting – my ego felt like it was ‘an important somebody” (even though no one else saw me this way). I also noticed that now that I’d come up with a scheme to satisfy my ego’s urge to feel like ‘an important somebody’, I felt compelled to fuss and insist over things that really didn’t matter to me. My God … I’d created a life of self-imposed misery, all for the sake of feeling like ‘an important somebody’.
It wasn’t but a few weeks before I found myself compulsively fussing and insisting about the smallest of matters. I began feeling discontent about everything! I created myself to be a spoiled brat, all in the name of shallow vanity (what else could it be?)
I was slow to admit it, but it was time for me to stop fussing and insisting; it simply wasn’t working for me. The habit of fussing and insisting wasn’t satisfying my inner urge to grow and develop in the least; as a matter of fact – fussing and insisting was downright dissatisfying … and I was doing it to myself!
Now came the problem: The habit of fussing and insisting wasn’t as easy to break as it was to take on. The first thing I had to do was let go of my delusion that feeling like I was ‘an important somebody’ meant anything. I had to look at the truth of the matter: my hypnotic love affair with my ego was downright insane … in the end, it explains every human tragedy that I cause in my life.
Is it possible that we all have hypnotic love affairs with our egos? Is that the cause of all human tragedies? Is it possible that when our view of ourselves in life is wrong, it promotes wrong action in our lives, which causes unnecessary self-injury? Could that be???
What is your love affair with your ego?
What do you do for ego satisfaction?
C’mon now … tell the truth.
And what human tragedy has it caused you to endure?
Are you saying you are always humble and willing to look bad (and even be proven wrong), in the name of learning something new? So few are willing to do this; so, so few!
Teacher: Do you want to know one way to channel your attention rightly?
Student: What do I have to do?
Teacher: Be willing to look at your ego-habits.
Student: What will this do for me?
Teacher: Correctly directed mental energy becomes a form of psychic healing.
Student: What is the result of psychic healing?
Teacher: If you want self-command so that you may design an extraordinary destiny for yourself – do not seek it in the ways of the ego.
What can you share about your ‘humanity’?
Dare’st you expose an ego habit in the name of helping others to grow and develop as a consequence of learning from you?
This is a challenging blog, indeed… Carpe diem!
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